On losing something I behold

Yesterday, amidst the help we extended at the Sapang Palay in Bulacan, I was slowly losing my precious voice. Imagine hearing the croak of a frog, that's how I sounded. This event in my life must be avoided. As much as possible, I should not let myself be succumbed by lost of voice. I am a teacher by profession. Even on vacation time like this, I still have tutorial classes. I am also teaching English online. Basically, my voice is my bread and butter. If not for my precious voice, I will not be able to live accordingly. I will not be able to provide food on my family's table nor enjoy the luxury of talking. Moreover, it's a great challenge for me to become mute all day. You can never see me quiet unless I opt not to talk. You can seldom see me sitting on the side rails and contemplate on whatever people are doing around me. Well, talking is my passion. It will never be a luxury to me. Now that I lost it, I seemed to lose something very very important and dear to me. How can I meet friends today without talking to them? How can I teach my students online if their teacher is croaking like a frog? Teaching online can never be like teaching students face to face. You cannot use actions. Students rely on my voice to hear the correct sound of /f/, /v/, /r/,/l/. See? It's quite complicated if I will just let them talk and won't be correcting their mistakes. How can learning occur in that regard? Since they paid me to teach them one of the most difficult macro skills in the communicative approach, the payment will just be in futile. In addition, I am also teaching a student one on one. Having a voice is more convenient for both of us because I am teaching her Speech. It will be very difficult for her to understand the correct sound of /th/. /sh/, and /ch/ if she cannot hear it correctly from me. Even if I use actions to send my message to her, she could not understand it because she's an EFL (English as a Foreign Language) student. I wonder how it will be, so I have to cancel it.

In conclusion, I felt immobile. I cannot meet my appointment today. I cannot hold classes online or offline. I cannot speak for the whole day.